Can somebody please help me!!!!!?
This is my story... im 19 years old, i was born in Colombia and from the day i was born my life has been a disaster, as i was told when my mom gave birth to me one week later she abandoned me and left me with my father alone. When i was 3 my father had the opportunity to move out to United States for a better future for me,i dont even look spanish im 5´11, white skin,brown hair and blue eyes. i was raised in the states, i went to school and i graduated from high school 2 years ago. But my father never cleared up our permanence in the states as legal residents and i had no clue about it till October 13th 2006 when 2 homeland security agents walked into our house and said, you are illegal aliens grab your passports you´re going back home! i said home? this is my home! he said, well apparently to homeland security you´re not LETS GO! and so we were sent back ¨HOME¨ we lost everything we had, the apartment we lived in was ours but it was not fully paid for, and the car was a lease, we were left with NOTHING in a country that i didn't even remembered because i was 3 when my dad took me to the states now i was 18. We had nothing, no family no nothing but 4.000$ dollars that my dad was able to pick up at a atm in the homeland security building in miami. I didn't even speak spanish just my father did. The 4000 dollars that we had left lasted us for about 2 months, than my dad had to get a job as a deliveryman and from there on i started taking spanish lessons and so we sorta went on with our lives even tho we were broken and depressed after that but we went on! but my father was so depressed that for him only alcohol would cure his wounds and bacame an alcoholic and died of cirrhosis on october 14th 2008 exactly 2 years and 1 day after that happening. He was all i had left and now my life is even more misserable! 3 months before he died i met a girl and fell in love with her, im still with her and shes the only reason i havent taken my life away. Im trying to go on just for her, i work in a supermarket washing fruits and vegetables making 420.000 pesos that equals 200 us dollars a month but i feel like i cant go on anymore, im broken, sad, desperate, depressed i dont know how to explain this feeling. How could they have done this to me? to my father? he was a good man, a hard worker, i was a good student, a good son. But now theres nothing i can do, i wish death upon me but im too coward to take my own life away, im afraid, maybe i dont wanna die but what alse can i do? i wish the whole world could hear me out, But i still have hope theres someone out there that can help me in any way. Please some one!!!
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1 :
I am very sorry I cannot help you even if I wanted to very much, but I live in Tunisia... Could you not make your story public ? I mean try to make contact with american newspapers, get Oprah and Dr Phil to know your story ? I know it is not easy in Colombia though. But as you have at least access to internet, you could try to send tons of letters to every association, TV social program and newspaper you can find... No harm in trying, I would say. Keep us posted anyway, and all the best
2 :
Languages is not the right section for this question, sir. Why don't you appeal the decision to be deported or apply to get a visa back into the US? The homeland security people did this because you were illegal. Period. Your father hadn't completed the paperwork necessary for you to stay. But you should be able to appeal for a right to take a citizenship test and stuff; it's not your fault. And never forget that you have your girl. Try to get her and her family's help in your time of need. Best of luck to you, friend.
3 :
Your situation is heartbreaking, but I don't have much of an idea what to do! However, you might begin by speaking with the nearest American consul, telling him or her what you've said here. Emphasize that, since you were brought to the US as a tinychild, you were innocent of any intentional illegal behavior. Then, since you've graduated from high school, one logical next step is college. If your Spanish isn't good enough yet for you to go to college there in Colombia, you can inquire about the length of time you'll have to wait before returning to the US on a student visa, as well as about any other English-speaking colleges, maybe in the Caribbean, that might be suitable for you. You could also write to any friends of your father's and yours in the US in the hope that they might intercede for you in some way. However, since you have now met a girl you love and want to stay with, another option is to try to build a better life for the two of you there in Colombia. Again, more education is an important step. And one valuable card in your hand is your English. Are there better jobs that you could get there using your English-speaking skills? Maybe in the travel industry? Finally, is there someone there where you live now whom you can talk to? A priest or a counselor? An older friend nearby to encourage you can make a big difference. I realize that trying to speak about such personal and important things in a language you've studied for only two years must be very hard, but please make the effort! If there's a sympathetic English teacher at a school near you, he or she might be a good candidate for that role, even though he or she has no training in counseling. At least that person would be an older friend with whom you can talk easily!
4 :
Wow, that is tough. Colombia is probably one of the last places I would ever think about living, or even visiting for that matter. Does Colombian culture have any redeeming facets at all? Look around you right now - is there anything in your immediate vicinity that brings you any comfort that you didn't have in the U.S.? What interests do you share with your lover? Are there others in your community that also share those interests. Do you think Colombia deserves to survive as a nation? Is there anything you can do to remediate that situation? Do you know anything about Che Guevara? You are a victim of political systems right now - if I were you I would be doing everything in my power to change that - learn as much as you can about the language and culture you are in right now - that knowlege is the tool you need to either improve the culture you are in, or, get the h*** out. Either way, you've got to have tools to work with. Since your father was an alcoholic - I would search out any Alcoholics Anonymous members in your area - there you will find people who either share or can relate to your current plight - I wouldn't be a bit surprised if there you find someone in A.A. who could help you. God (or whatever higher power you subscribe to) bless you, and may He/She/It give you the strength to grow and prosper, and the peace to continue.
5 :
First of all; stop and thank God that you are alive; that you have a roof over your head; a girlfriend; a job; and your health. You have a high school degree and a trade even if all it is is washing fruit. Be grateful for what you have instead of crying for what you have lost. Do you believe in God? If you do, then thank God for what you have. if you do not then you best work on finding God in your life by reaching out and helping those less fortunate than you; for they are legion. Look around you; you are in a depressed area but you have no reason to be depressed. You father made a conscious decision to drink and it killed him. You are not dead. The fact that your mother left is sad but you don't have to lie down and die because she hurt you. Show some backbone and some of that American Grit you claim to have and get on with your life. Save your coins and petition for a visa. Everyone that was not born in the US has to do the same thing and there are millions of LEGAL immigrants here and you can become one if you are willing to do the work. NUFF SAID.
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